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Saturday, March 28, 2009

Human Children! Hello! :)

I took Erika out for a mommy daughter lunch today. I try to take each of our children out once a month for mommy time, and daddy does the same.

We went to a restaurant during "off hours" so we didn't feel rushed and just sat and adored each other.

(for those of you who don't know, Erika has arthrogryposis (malformation of the joints) and 4 months after we returned home, had to have both of her feet amputated because she was in so much pain)

So here is this bright, beautiful, smart, and did I say sweet little girl sitting before me, and I posed a question to her.

"If somebody were to ask you, 'What kind of kids are available for adoption in Ukraine?' what would you say?"

She rolled her beautiful eyes and said, "Human children, Hello!" :-)
cracked me up.

She then went on to talk about being in the orphanage where she never had a visitor. Her orphanage was not popular for adoption, and during the 4 years she was there, she saw 5 of her friends leave, including Sarah. (her sister now)

(Erika's first four years were spent in a "left to lay room". Her actual
paper work doesn't even show her existence during that time. Sarah was found in a TB sanitarium and didn't even get to an orphanage until she was 4. She was adopted by another family on her 5th birthday, and she came to us 6 weeks before her 6th birthday due to an adoption disruption)

She said, "I never expected anybody to love me. I used to cry at night because I knew I would never be chosen, because I am like this.... (speaking of her body)

She continued, "But then you came. And I KNOW you love me." "I was so shocked that it was ME that time. I couldn't believe it! I never, ever thought it would happen to me!"

So we sat and sipped our cokes and had chicken enchiladas and adored each other's company. Mother and daughter, bonded by love for each other forever!

I couldn't be any closer to a child who came from my body... as far as I'm concerned it is as if she did, and I am proud of her.

I can't help but feel that people miss out so much and limit themselves so much because of fear. My husband and I don't have loads of money or a money tree.
But God does provide for our needs... (note, I said needs.) Trips like Disney World are out of the question, and new things are not important.
We are frugal, and don't really honestly care about stuff......
Kids are way more important.

I just wonder, how many children are there, going to bed at night, weeping alone in the dark, so very, very deserving of our love, yet all alone; knowing they will never be "chosen"?
Why? Because they aren't good enough, perfect enough, pretty enough,healthy enough.... :-(

At the same time, I don't judge somebody who wouldn't take somebody like Erika or Sarah, or even our Anna.... I just figure God had them all saved for me.:-)
I am so blessed. WAY WAY beyond what I deserve.

Oh to have a gold bar in my closet to chip from, and a few extra bedrooms.
(I'm dead serious)

BTW- did I mention we are getting our homestudy updated? :-)


Lorraine Fuller said...

I can so see Erika doing that eye roll of hers! I too would love to have a gold brick to chip off of, and a dh with a little less fear in his heart so I could adopt more!

Anonymous said...

Christie, your conversation with Erika was like the expanse of human emotion. Her story is as amazing as any fairytale ever written. How blessed you are to have each other!!!

Amy...who wanted 4. said...

All I can say is WOW!
What an awesome luch you 2 had.
Updated homestudy, eh???
Can't wait to watch your story unfold! :)

Diana said...

You always have the most inspiring posts! Thanks for sharing.

Indeed, someone told me the other day "I could never do what your're doing." My answer was "Why?" "Because I don't want to." Again, my answer was "Why?" "Because I couldn't do it." Again, my answer was "Why? I certainly didn't sign up for what I got. I didn't think I could do it either. And I most certainly didn't want to!! But God knew. He knew me better than I knew myself and He also knew my two precious kids. And with His strength, we are learning some of the most amazing experiences of our lives and we're doing it together. Do you want to know the most ironic part? Now I WOULD sign up to do it again - and I will when all my kids are ready. There are 143,000,000 other kids just like mine out there in the world. They deserve families, too."

Looking forward to seeing how your next chapter unfolds. Which direction are you looking...IA, foster, disruption, or still not sure?

Melissa E. said...

If you ever get that money tree, I'd like a cutting...

Smithsholidayroad said...

Oh my goodness that converssation is both precious and shocking in one. You are extremely lucky to have eachother and she is just beautiful. Xxx

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