“I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me.”
― C. S. Lewis
― C. S. Lewis
I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. (quote found on the wall of a concentration camp)
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Sweet Girls and Painfilled Bodies
You know, I have this long term relationship with my back. It follows me everywhere, and it hurts; a lot sometimes.
This is one of those times.
The weather doesn't help much... but the big thing was: I wrestled our billy goat to the ground the other day. He kept trying to butt me. I have a sore foot and finger, but somehow I became SUPER WOMAN for a few minutes and he and I had it out!
I WON! Sort of.... Let's just say when I let him up, he squared off at me again, lowered his head and then I stompled my foot and he took off running. :) THAT was so satisfying!
BUT....now I am paying, big time. I think my elbow doesn't hurt.... other than that....
So today, I was trying to do laundry. I put the clothes down to fold and tried to get into a comfortable position to fold them, but there wasn't one. Everything just hurt.
So I was sort of, quietly weeping at my dilemma of needing to fold clothes, and being in pain....
Before I knew it, Erika came over and tenderly asked, "Mommy, are you ok?"
I said, "Yes, I'm ok."
She asked, "Why are you crying?"
I said, "Probably because I'm a girl."
We both started laughing.
She wanted to hug me, but I was on the floor and she can't bend down, so I had to get up....
So, I finally got up and she hugged me and said the sweetest thing:
After she had layed her head on my chest she looked up with a smile and said,
"Well, at least your heart is beeping!" LOL
That just made my day....
The day I eat Cabrito will make my day too! Rotten goat.