“I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me.”
― C. S. Lewis
― C. S. Lewis
I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. (quote found on the wall of a concentration camp)
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
She Did It!
But it is Sarah's turn now. Honestly, I didn't think she would do it. She kept discussing it and saying, "I don't know if I want to. I DO want to and I DON'T want to!
We told her she didn't have to. She has had major fear issues about being alone due to some circumstances before we knew her. But she surprised us all and said, "I'm going to do it!"
Her first night, she lasted about an hour and went into her old room with Erika.
The second night, she lasted a little longer.
But LAST night, she went to bed surrounded by Barbies and babies and went to sleep. At 4:00 a.m.
I heard a quiet little weep.... I asked, "Are you ok?" She said, "Mama, I just don't think I can do it!"
I let her know it was 4:00 a.m. and it was almost over. She asked if I would stay awake until she went back to sleep and I said I would. I think she went right back to sleep, and then, I woke up and checked on her at 6:00 and she was soundly sleeping. YEA!
We got up and went in and woke her and congratulated her on a true Heroic Effort to conquer her fear.
At breakfast this a.m., daddy was talking with her about how he was so happy that it was her choice to do it, and that we would never force her to conquer her fears; but we would support her efforts and cheer her on. It is her timing and she will always be safe with us.
It may not seem like much to some of those who read my blog, but this little girl could not go to the bathroom alone day or night just 5 years ago. It was not just fear, it was TERROR. It took 2 plus years to get her to go to the bathroom at night without us getting up and staying in the bathroom with her.
Our Sarah is growing up and facing her fears and CONQUERING them! YEA! SARAH!