“I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me.”
― C. S. Lewis
― C. S. Lewis
I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. (quote found on the wall of a concentration camp)
Saturday, August 6, 2011
It was really a good movie. Being a mom to two girls with amputations, it was different watching this movie. And our girls' reactions to the movie were different too.
Sarah has always had a leg missing and fingers missing. She doesn't really miss what she has never had. Even though limb loss complicates her life, she doesn't think about it much. So when she watched the movie, she watched it through the lesns of "What would it be like to lose an arm?" She identified with the movie more like Alli and Anna.
Erika however had a much more profound reaction to the movie. Her feet were amputated at the age of 8. Even though her feet were painful and she couldn't walk with them very well, every once in a while she will say something like, "I miss my feet." Or "I miss my toes."
It is sorta funny..... I do too. I miss her feet and toes. There was a loss. a BIG loss. Yet there was a BIG gain! I am thankful that she can walk today.
Limb loss, no matter the reason is still a LOSS.
One of the things we were told at camp this year was that the reaction of a person with limb loss is different if they were born with congenital limb loss vs. losing a limb at an older age. I believe this to be true.
So while Erika is thankful that she can walk, and is thankful for her prosthetic legs, she can feel the raw pain of loss.
Both girls liked the movie, even though it made Erika cry. Her favorite part was the end, when she rides the wave inside the tube.
I think that may have been my favorite part too. The freedom of riding a wave and seeing the Glory of God from the back side of the water, from the inside of a waterfall. :)