“I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me.”
― C. S. Lewis
― C. S. Lewis
I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. (quote found on the wall of a concentration camp)
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Before I blogged though, I used a journal when our adoption of Anna commenced. I needed to take notes, to find out what made her tick, to write down what we did wrong each day as well as what we did right.
I wrote about all the cute things she did, as well as her naughtiness. :) Those journals proved to be one of the most valuable tools I had. Not because I am such a great writer, but because I was able to go back and read and process our PROGRESS. When I was discouraged, I would go back and read and realize how far we had come.
I filled up more than one journal with Annaism's and then when Sarah came I started one for her too.
The same thing happened when Erika came home.
Then, I started blogging. :)
I am working on a project and went back to some old journals to look through them. I was really surprised about what I had forgotten, both good and bad! And OH I am SO GLAD I wrote those things down.
Some of the information from those blogs I have re written in memory on different posts on this blog.
I would like to encourage ANYBODY who is adopting or has newly adopted, even though you might have a blog, to keep a private journal also. Write in it just before you go to bed and if something happens and you get a chance to jot down your feelings DO IT....
It will be a VALUABLE source of information for you to refer back to.
Write down your flaws, your shortcomings, your prayers, and write down your child's behaviors and their reactions too. I PROMISE, if you have an open heart, a pattern will emerge and it will provide an emotional map for you to study. :)
Then, you can navigate your way to success! Keep blogging too! :)