“I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me.”
― C. S. Lewis
― C. S. Lewis
I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. (quote found on the wall of a concentration camp)
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Something On My Heart
I was always careful to include Tim in everything possible, but also, I tried to keep him from being "center stage" all the time too. This meant, some things he cheered his brothers on, and some things they cheered him on, but we ALL Cheered!
In the early 2000's, before we brought our girls home, I watched a documentary or news type show about siblings growing up with siblings who had special needs. It was one of the saddest things I had ever seen.
The bitterness some of the siblings had was downright unreal. And oh, how the "I'm so sorry for you's" poured out from the host of the show.
I was sickened to my core.
It caused me to think about my boys. I remember asking how they felt, and honestly, it was QUITE the opposite of that show. I was glad that I was not living in some sort of fantasy land!
Then came the girls. First Anna, then Sarah, then Erika and then Alli.
I remember when we had our last home study updated, Anna said that she was glad to be getting a sister who had all her arms and legs. She didn't mean it in a rude way, but she has had the unusual position of being the person with a normal body, instead of the other way around.
We all laughed at the thought that she was the "unusual one". :)
Anna, is such a sweet girl. She is an amazingly helpful sister. There is no bitterness in her, like what that news show portrayed either. She is always saying to me, "Mom, I'll do that!" or "Mom, I can help with that."
These last 2 weeks have been filled with wheel chair events and lifting since Erika's surgery. There is a LOT that has to be done, including bathroom, bathing, dressing etc.
Erika is doing more and more now that her pain is better, but still needs us for a lot.
Today, she took her first NON SPONGE bath. I really wanted her to get a nice, long, luxurious soak in the bath and guess who was there to help me get her in and out? Anna.
And she takes joy in her service. I am so proud of her.
She and Erika have a wonderful relationship. And just like our guys, she is proud of her brothers and sisters who have special needs. She is also proud of her brothers and sisters who don't.
I took her out today. She said, "I am most like Joe. We have the same smile and sense of humor. ". :)