I am the first to admit, that the palpable existence of EVIL in this world bothers me greatly. The suffering in the world seems to be growing at alarming rates. Evil begets Chaos and it seems that Chaos is reigning in so many different locations, including right here in America.
Suffering, especially the suffering of innocent people is so troubling. Sometimes I have to stop reading because I start to feel so small, so overcome with sadness and I feel so powerless to change anything.
Information about world events is pressed upon us giving us knowledge of so much more than any of the previous generations on earth. Honestly, I don't think we were meant to take in so much.
That brings me to wonder how in the WORLD GOD, can handle so much and bear so much. He bears our burdens and feels our sorrows, AND.... He allows it! But why? God is LOVING and KIND, He is LONG SUFFERING and PATIENT, and I do not believe that ONE thing happens on this Earth that HE does not know about.
Yet, that Loving God, allowed my daughters to suffer horrendously. He allowed me to suffer. He has allowed hardship to come to nearly every person I know. There are people that suffer tremendously all over this world. Yet God says , "Follow Me. Trust Me."
It is a puzzle when I think without eternity in mind. When I am short sighted and filled with my self, NONE of it makes any sense. It is sort of like this riddle:
"What has four letters, yet has three. But used in a sentence brings happiness and glee.
Therefore has nine, but there has just five. What in the world? If it has two, that is ok."
This is what it is like to think in the flesh, without the eyes of eternity. This is what it is like to not have faith, to not trust in the infinite wisdom of a loving and heavenly father.
But when the riddle is solved.... (if you can't solve it, let me know and I'll give a clue) all of the sudden, what seemed chaotic and made ZERO sense, is put in proper perspective. And we can say "Ahhh!" Now I understand.
That time for us will not come for a long time. And that is where faith comes in. I choose to put my faith in the ONE who knows all things and rest in Him, even when I do not understand. He knit me in my mother's womb, he knows the number of days that I will live, and he knows the future.
Things are much less chaotic in my heart when I think about world affairs, or the affairs within my own family when I stop being short sighted and look at circumstances in light of eternity, and I trust that He who began a good work, will be faithful to complete it.
“I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me.”
― C. S. Lewis
― C. S. Lewis
I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. (quote found on the wall of a concentration camp)