I have written about our children's internal clock, and how Holidays can wreak havoc on a child who has suffered much in life.
We are not strangers to Trauma, or Anniversaries. Those anniversaries are usually not positive! They bring back memories and our children suffer so.
Over the years, I have found that preparing our children for the holidays ahead of time, helps with the impact of the Anniversary.
Two of our daughters LOVE Holidays and Birthdays! One of our daughter's likes the holiday time, but has so many hurtful memories. And then one of our daughters would prefer that Holidays didn't exist. It is a stressful time for her.
We have done our best to rewrite memories that are good and her memories of good times at Holidays are there. But what is also there is rejection, pain and the memories of long ago.
Unfortunately, her birthday comes right at the SAME TIME! She likes her birthday but doesn't like to make a big deal of it.
There are positive things that can come out of the holidays. It is a great opportunity to help our children to work through that old trauma! While it may not be exactly how we would view holidays, they are a perfect time to work on some tough things. :)
So today we had some extra rocking chair time for a couple of girls.
We talked about what to expect and came up with some positives!
Now, In the middle of this rocking chair time I was baking like a crazy woman, trying to figure out a new recipe and one of our girls was telling me she wanted a new room mate! LOL
One minute she was playing peacefully and the next she was full of angst.
The room mate request signaled to me a need for a rocking chair experience.
THAT is when we as parents drop EVERYTHING and focus. It was time to put the baking aside for somebody WAY more important that a perfect pie.
But poor Alli was just so sad that she will not be able to see her other brother and sister. She was mournfully blaming herself.... "It is all my fault because I had a bad attitude". :(
And then I had to carefully work through THAT minefield and tell her NO! It was NOT ALL your fault... HOWEVER, you DID have behaviors that were not appropriate.
But parents normally don't send their kids away like that. THAT is NOT your fault!
She went on to say, "I had NO IDEA they would do that!"
I told her I'm GLAD you had NO idea! Because it isn't normal!
"You had those same behaviors when you came here, and we worked through them, right?"
She smiled and said tearfully, "Thank you for keeping me mommy!"
That broke my heart. :(
I pray that some day when her siblings are older, that they will be able to reconnect. But for now, that is just not possible.
I reassured her at the same time that I believe she is where she belongs. She agreed and said something very profound.... "Mama, I don't think I could have healed if I hadn't come here."
And then I got the biggest hug ever... and a big smile....
It was a sweet time. :)
I hugged our other girl and rocked her after that. And we talked all about the plans for the weekend. She managed some sweet snuggles, I love you's and smiles. :)
I took one of our girls out and talked about what the plans were for the weekend. We also joked that when she was older, she just might spend Holidays camping or on a cruise! LOL She loved that idea.
It is really important for us to accept our children where they are. There is no moral dilemma with being stressed by Holidays.
We have a huge family, and it can be stressful for one of our daughters in particular. At the same time, she really does enjoy the time, just in smaller bites. :)
She LOVES her little nephews and nieces and and can be found entertaining them.
And then.... she'll slip off to read or write.... and that is OK!
Do not let relatives pass judgment on your children. Encourage your children to be polite and kind, but don't force them to be fake.
Things are much more peaceful that way.
Everybody is tucked in and the last of the baking is going on......
Praying for those of you who's children suffer during the Holidays.
“I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me.”
― C. S. Lewis
― C. S. Lewis
I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. (quote found on the wall of a concentration camp)