“I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me.”
― C. S. Lewis
― C. S. Lewis
I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. (quote found on the wall of a concentration camp)
Saturday, March 30, 2013
What About Them???
I remembered him when we went to get Erika 2 years before. He was so sweet. When we came back, he remembered us, and He remembered Erika.
He sat next to me and carefully went through each page of the photo album we brought, carefully looking at Erika and smiling.
And then, the tears began to flow. His little tears captured my heart and will forever be there.
There was NOTHING I could do for this little one, other than to comfort him for the moment.
He was a "social orphan". He was not available for adoption, but he was STUCK, just like many of the children are.
I do not know what he was thinking. Was he thinking "I miss My Mama?" Or was he crying tears of Joy for Erika. I don't know. I just know they were sincere.
And then, there was little Igor. He is the little boy in the Blue, who also captured my heart. He has the same type of cerebral Palsy as our Timothy, (spastic diplegia) and he LOOKED SO MUCH LIKE OUR SON did at that age.
Of course this little boy was suffering being in the orphanage. He sounded so cute speaking with his little Russian voice.... But he was saying with a cute smile, "I want to grab your glasses and break them!" He tried a few times to do just that.... But we smiled and redirected him.
Poor Igor. I FEAR for where he is today. He is no longer a baby in the baby house. Is he one of the Lost Boys in Ukraine who is to rot forever in a mental institution for the crime of being born different?
I pray that somebody was able to bring Igor home. He desperately needed a family, as ALL these children did!
When I think about them, I pray for them.
I do not know ANYBODY who has gone overseas to adopt , who has not been affected deeply, by the little ones left behind.
Their little eyes will always be with you. They are in your dreams. They are living human beings with no hope, no future....
I pray that wherever they are.... they HEAR the Gospel. I pray that those in their own country will reach out to them and bring them comfort and love.
And I pray for their future families, that they will LOVE THEM with an UNCONDITIONAL LOVE that they so deserve!