I have been praying about a problem that I have faced over the last week. It actually didn't show up this past week, it just came to a head in my heart. It has nothing to do with my children, or their trauma. It has everything to do with the adoption community and hostilities that exist between those who judge others intentions, and even question the integrity and honesty of their blogging.
It had been on the back burner simmering for a long, long time.
Last night, I took some advice from "The Connected Child" book regarding getting rid of our own baggage.
I decided to write a blog post about how I felt.... I worked on it for a few days and then I deleted it.
I gave it to the Lord, where it belonged in the first place! He is my defender. He KNOWS. And that is enough! Wow was that ever freeing!
In my prayer, I realized I was letting people's opinions, whom I have never even met, have power in my life! That is just wrong! What a strange world we live in, where we know people from all over the world! But do we really know them? No! We don't.
My sin. My wrong.
Realizing that there is still a bit of "fear" in my life was eye opening. I need to rearrange some priorities. My eyes were being distracted from my Lord, and paying attention to circumstances around me; circumstances that I cannot control.
I want to be surrounded by those who really "get" the Christian walk. They "get" the sacrifice that God wants from us; a life surrendered completely to His will. This is my desire and it effects all areas of my life. Christianity cannot and must not be "compartmentalized". It can't be. If Christ is in us, we are His! Our ways must be His. And I am so thankful for those who are wonderful examples of walking with Christ in the midst of difficult circumstances.
God does not take our trials away. He walks us through them! And the perspective on that trial changes greatly when we know the truth; that God is in control. Period.
Romans 12: 1-2
I appeal to you therefore, brothers,[a] by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.[b] 2 Do not be conformed to this world,[c] but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.[d
His Perfect Will.... Oh how I love basking in Him, In his love. I thank him for pointing, ever so gently that I was needing to get my
eyes on Him. "Don't look to the left or the right. You follow Me!"
"His Mercies Are New Every Morning"
“I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me.”
― C. S. Lewis
― C. S. Lewis
I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. (quote found on the wall of a concentration camp)