“I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me.”
― C. S. Lewis
― C. S. Lewis
I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. (quote found on the wall of a concentration camp)
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
A Newsy Update
We started summer school this week. We are just doing 2 hours, from 10-12. And it is working out wonderfully!
For Miss Alli, she is working 45 minutes reading, 45 minutes spelling and then 30 minutes of math.
She cheerfully started, and was even up early so she and Sarah could play barbies on the front porch before she started.
It is nice getting back into a routine. Our kids seem to thrive on routine. Today we had our library day too, and finished off the evening with our family worship time.
We were talking about how the gospel impacts our every day lives, and then we read 1 Corinthians 13. Anna made a profound statement.... "You cannot give something you do not have", referring to love. She was so right.
If you are not filled with love, you cannot give it! If you have not experienced love, how will you know to love, or even how to love?
When I think about our children, who came to us, not understanding or knowing love, I feel tears well up in my eyes thinking about where they are now! They are full of love. Each one of them.
Today, I layed down on my bed for a "brief moment".... (not) and Miss Alli came in and layed her head on my stomach. We both fell into a deep sleep! I woke an hour later, and just looked at her beautiful, peaceful face, resting there, holding my hand, and felt like I had witnessed a miracle!
I didn't want to move. I didn't want that moment to end. It was priceless.
Tonight when Anna came up and spontaneously hugged me and said, "Mama, I love you so much!"
My heart skipped with joy. I was witnessing a miracle.
Today as I watched Erika and Anna interact, making a movie together, just loving on each other, laughing together and working well together... I was witnessing a miracle.
Today as I saw Sarah and Alli interact and laugh together, sharing sweet moments of sisterly love, I witnessed a miracle.
Tonight as I listened to my girls pray and ask the Lord for wisdom, guidance and discernment, I witnessed a miracle!
Love is alive in their hearts! Our hearts of full of gratefulness, of what the Lord can do in in our lives.
We truly are living a miracle! I am so humbled to be a part of God's bigger plan!
And.... our prayers have been answered once again! We will be going to Oklahoma so Alli and Tatyana can see each other once again before Tatyana starts college.
Please pray for the girls as they reunite, that the Lord will go before them and give them all comfort and understanding! We are so excited for all of us!
I love days like this when Trauma has had no place..... But LOVE has RULED!
LOVE ROCKS! And it DOES NOT FAIL!
Hanging on for the ride! :)