I remember the vibrant blogging days from years ago, and how everything was going well. And then, it wasn't. We went from thriving to striving to "Ummmm..... What just happened here?"
What was I not paying attention to? What was a blind to? How could these things have happened to "Our Family?"
I mean, we love our children, this wasn't our first time parenting, and we had been parenting all of the girls for quite some time......
Those were questions that I asked myself.
As we got dragged in deeper and deeper to the realities of how deep trauma can affect an individual, it was very apparent, that DEEP TRAUMA was rearing its ugly head and it was HERE, at home. MY HOME. OUR HOME.
I had been writing about it for years and we seemed to have successfully navigeted through much, but there was that proverbial "brick wall" that was in front of us, and BAMMMM! IT HIT!
It hit HARD. And it hurt. It hurt so very much.
All of my time went from blogging to surviving. I even went back and read many things that I had written, to remind myself, that WE could get through this with the Help of our Lord. HE had NOT abandoned us, though at times it felt just like that.
As we worked over time with several different counselors, pastors and friends, prayed, poured through scripture, poured our hearts out to each other.... slowly the pieces started to come together.
And we have survived.
We have seen HIS faithfulness to us in all situations. We have been broken before the Lord, and have learned much.
"There is no pit so deep, that God isn't deeper still." That statement is from Corrie Ten Boom. And I believe it with all of my heart.
Both of our girls who are not at home are still in contact and I am so very thankful for that. Both of them have beautiful little baby boys. Alli lives close by and we are able to see her and our little grand son Sebastian. She is a hard worker and has been employee of the month at her job.But her BEST job is being a mama to this little one.
I had the honor of being at his birth. Bringing life into this world is an amazing thing, and Alli did such a great job!
She is a good mama, and LOVES this little one. And he adores his mama.